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| Thursday, January 18th, 2007 | | 4:50 pm |
So somebody is apparently putting on a show for me as a benefit to raise money for all my medical bills.Well that person wants to remain anonymous I was told. So if any of you are bored tomorrow night, friday the 19th you should come to this show. If you cant afford the 10 bucks then just show up, and donate a penny or something. check out the bands, they are great. and give me a night to remember withlove and unending hugs. <3 seriously. be here.
for info and directions : http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=86852334 | | Wednesday, September 20th, 2006 | | 10:24 pm |
| | Wednesday, August 16th, 2006 | | 1:55 pm |
Ended up getting my lungs drained yesterday. Its a different experience for everyone and supposedly not that bad. Well since my experience was completely difrerent than anyone else the doctors and nurses had seen.. Im just not going to post about it, I dont want to scare anyone who may have to go through it. But lets just say it was NOT what I expected and today nothing has changed. | | Tuesday, August 15th, 2006 | | 1:24 pm |
cancer is so fun.
Going to get the fluid drained from my lungs in a few minutes. Dont know what to expect but I suck with pain so Im sure Ill cry. Seriously. Last night I had a fever of almost 103 and in general Ive been very weak and sick and have felt too sick to even move. I hate it. The doctors think getting rid of the fluid may make me heal better and faster.
If I feel okay later Im going with my Dad <3 to the movies, so I better feel okay.
| | Monday, August 14th, 2006 | | 6:13 pm |
badd news then goooood news.
I feel incredibly sick. There is no way to even taper off my drugs without having extremely intesnse pain. Today pretty much sucks, all I wanted was to lay in bed because my whole body hurts and I had to do to so much wedding stuff and i made a bunch of stuff for lou becuase today was our "3 year". His car is broken so I havent been able to even take ANY drugs today and im dying without them and I cant take ANY until I pick him up at 7:30.. and I can not wait, my back is trying to kill me. My throat/esapogus has gotten worse. I cant eat or drink or cough or do anything because the radiation has screwed it up so bad and the doctors said its only going to get worse. Oh and I have extreme nausea now from the radiation so when I try to eat or cough, especially cough, my body starts dry heaving and if I have any food in me whatsoever I will throw it up. Interesting huh? I thought Id get through radiation without a problem this time. Oh well. So thats the update. I ran into my old friend Kate a few days ago at the tattoo shop when lou had to stop bye. We talked alot. Last time I saw her was as her dad was dying and then he did so she was worried about selling his house and business and all sorts of stuff and then she moved. Right after this I guess pretty much everyone in her family died. Then she got pregnant and her mom died just a few days after the baby was born. Its soooo sad. I finally have someone who kinda understands. Well anyway weve been talking and today she called to ask permission to get a breast cancer ribbon tattoed on her forearm with my name in cursive. I couldnt believe it. I cried so hard for so long. But she told me I was the only person there for her when her dad was sick and when he died and all her tattoos are for people in her life who have come or gone or made a difference. So I said it was ok. And cried that somebody would do that for me, especially since we have not talked in 5 years. People really amaze me. <3 | | Wednesday, August 9th, 2006 | | 4:30 pm |
cancer is back.
OH my goodness. I can not believe I did not update telling you guys whats going on. Shortly after my last post about back pain I found out that there was a huge tumor crushing my T11 vertebrea and THAT is why I was in soooo much pain. I had surgery pretty immediately to remove to tumor and the vertebrea and they removed my lowest rib to put in the middle of the new fake vert. to fuse like a bone graph to the vert. above and below it. I was in the hospital for over 3 weeks and finally have been home about 2 weeks now. I have to wear a back brace for months to come and the incision is along my side (not spine) and about 9 inches long I would say? Its finally healed up superficially so thats good but Im still on tons of pain killers because my whole back hurts so much and they cut from my side to my spine so there are alot of severed nerves and the whole deal. Now Im doing radiation for any missed cancer cells. Now I have "metatastic cancer" so who knows where its going to pop up next, but Ill be honest Im terrifield but holding together...somehow. The steroids and meds Im on cancel out my anti-depressants so in the hospital I started getting terribly and uncontrollably depressed. We uped my antidepressants and just now, weeks later, Im starting to notice a difference thank God beucase I couldnt take much more of that right now. A friend of mine's mother battled metatastic breast cancer his whole life... over 20 years and she just passed away, so at least i have hope that maybe ill have a little while left, that would be nice. Lou and I are just starting our lives together, getting married September 2nd! All my goals and dreams have already come true but there are so many things in life that I still want to do, it would be so unfinished now. So im super sorry I didnt fill you in.. it happened pretty fast and Ive been heavily medicated and completely out of it and didnt even realize. I really love all you guys and hope youre doing much better than I am. | | Monday, August 7th, 2006 | | 6:35 pm |
jack and jill
Thank you, so ridiculously much, for coming to our Jack and Jill. In all honestly I really only expected about 20-30 people to show up because nobodyyy bought tickets or got back to us but in reality somewhere around 90+ people came throughout the day. Im sorry the club ended up being lame and not letting us do anything AND some people who said theyd play acoustic were not able to. It was amazing to see every single one of you and some of you were a complete shock. Im also really sorry I didnt get to spend much time with everyone. I felt really sick and and sore after the first HOUR only and there were so many people it was hard to spend time with everyone. But again, thank you so much for coming, you have NO IDEA how much it means to me and Lou. We know the most amazing people and we are so unbelievably lucky to know and have you all. We love you and thank you. <3 | | Thursday, June 29th, 2006 | | 7:18 pm |
I have been having EXTREME back pain for a few weeks now. I thought I hurt it on the job. I got Xrays and they were fine but because of my cancer history I had to get an MRI.
I got the results and its not just a sprained muscle or anything else. I have a lesion in my vertebrae and the doctor said its "quite probable that the cancer has returned". I have to get PET scan on monday and spine biopsy on wednesday.
To make things worse, the pain is getting worse everyday and no amount of drugs are helping. I cant sleep and I cant eat lately because the pain is intolerable. Ive been the ER twice in a week. And now my stomach hurts constantly from the drugs and lack of food and emotional upset.
Anyone have any idea what could cause a vertebral lesion if it isnt cancer? All it takes is one tiny cancer cell to have escaped.. | | Monday, June 19th, 2006 | | 11:05 pm |
Welcome the newest member of the family.. hes a baby boy, about a year and 3 months, and his name is Shamus. He and Chloe are absolutly IN LOVE with eachother. I love them so incredibly much. I can not even begin to imagine how much I will love my children.. these dogs make my heart ache.. imagine what my own children will do! I can not WAIT to be a mommy someday.
| | Monday, June 12th, 2006 | | 6:54 pm |
please come everyone!!!!!!!
August 5th, Lou and I will be having our Jack and Jill, as planned by Jay Roy, the best man. It will be at the Marconi Club in Springfield, from noon until 6pm, its a BBQ, and a Luau. You dont have to dress up Hawaian but we are just going to try to decorate for that theme. All day we will have acoustic sets playing, our friends and any other bands we can get to play so there will be live music the whole time. There is also a bar for all your alcoholic needs. There will be raffles for things like alcohol packs, free piercings, free tattoos, movie passes, dinner certificates, etc. Its $15 to get in or $25 for two tickets. You need to try and get tickets in advance so that we can know how much food and supplies we are going to need. So let me know. Since we are having a small wedding there are a million of you wed LOVE to invite but cant so this way we get to have a celebration with ALLLL of our friends. We have to charge for tickets because we have to pay for the club and food and drinks and everything, sorry. We want to hang out with as many of our friends as possible.. a HUGE party.. so invite everyone you know, even if we dotn know them. | | Sunday, June 4th, 2006 | | 11:17 pm |
So, I NEED you to tell me songs that you would like to hear at a wedding or that you think are good wedding songs. Fun ones and love songs and ANY appropriate type, very old or very new, doesnt matter. THANKS! 
| | Saturday, April 22nd, 2006 | | 7:37 pm |
you wont believe this, read!!
Some how I invested my hand in a serious case of Cellulitis. Its riduculous. It came out of nowhere, swelled my hand to twice its size, turn red and is burning and throbbing. Time and antibiotics will supposedly make it go away so we shall see. But I have to spend the weekend with my hand up/elevated and doing warm compresses. I was just terrified that it was the start of Lymphedema.
I got the EMT job at Baystate! Thats right.. I spent all my money, hired a trainer, let him kick the living crap out me, retook the physical agility test and I passed!! So finally after taking 3 years of pure nonesense, studying, and all the conflicts in the word I am going to be an EMT. Words can not explain how excited I am nor how proud of myself I am. Remember that, because chances are youll never hear me say that last part again. I finally did it and it was worth all the time, money, butt kicking, studying, and dilemas.
As for the Breast Cancer Walk.. I am upto $1,500 and still striving for the $2,200 I need. THank you so much if you donated or spread the word or got others to donate. I owe you all so much and I am forever greatful.. if you know someone who donated who I do not know please tell them how greatful I am and that I love them and owe them eternally. You never know when your sister, mother, aunt, friend, or lover will faced with breast cancer but you do know that you can count on the Susan Komen Foundation to help, and others all around the world who do what they can. If you still know someone who could donate, EVEN ONE DOLLAR, I still have a few months left to collect. Thank you again. AlLLLL my love. <3 Liberty
http://www.the3day.org/Boston06/libertyrebecca | | Thursday, April 13th, 2006 | | 12:11 am |
I signed up for the Three Day Walk to raise money for breast cancer. I appreciate all the help you have already done and I would give anything if you could donate just ONE DOLLAR even. If everyone donated a dollar I would be closer to my goal. I have to raise at least $2,200 to do the walk and thats going to be very hard since I have no family and my friends are all broke. But anything can happen if you try. Check out my webpage at least. Please, this means so much to me. http://www.the3day.org/Boston06/libertyrebecca
If you can not donate can you please at least spread the word on in case anyone else has a dollar or two they can spare?? I owe you all so much.
Looooooove.
| | Thursday, April 6th, 2006 | | 12:43 pm |
please help?
The Susan Koman Foundation (most popular breast cancer foundation) sponsors a 3 day walk in cities all over the country. Boston's is August 4-6. Its 60 miles in those 3 days. At night you camp out. Its $90 to register and you must raise at least 2,200 to walk. If you register they give you a personal trainer to help get you fit and all sorts of help on how/where to raise money along with a million other things they help you with and do for you. Does anyone want to do this with me? I think it would be super fun and what better cause could I do this for right now.. if you want to maybe do it with me let me know.. I cant do it alone because it would be too much to walk alone and sleep alone and everything.. so let me know. Check it. www.The3Day.org | | Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 | | 1:22 am |
So last week my friend Jessica was home visiting from Florida. She just had a baby boy who I am in love with. Jessica is my longest (15 years!) friend and more like a sister than anything.. I love her to pieces and weve been through everything together. She said she will make a baby for me someday when Im ready to have one. :) 
Then Lou and I went to New York City for the weekend (my Valentines Day present, isnt he the BEST). We hung out with my friend Steve who happens to be the only exboyfriend I am still close to and one of the only guys in this world that I love and have respect for (duh Lou doenst count, thats an given).
| | Tuesday, February 14th, 2006 | | 10:22 pm |
For Valentines Day Lou is taking me to NYC for Friday through Sunday... Give us ideas of what to do.. we want a fullll schedule. | | Friday, February 10th, 2006 | | 2:35 pm |
So words can not possibly describe how good it was to finally meet heather. We didnt have much time to hang out but every second was worth it. And Heather, I dont know how its possible but you are even cuter, funnier, and more beautiful in person. <3 If you dont know this girl, your life is not complete.
| | Wednesday, January 18th, 2006 | | 2:13 pm |
I GOT AN EMT JOB AT BAYSTATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was the happiest girl alive when they told me I go the job.. ive been waiting 3 years for this moment. It was like wow, all my dreams are coming true. I was suppposed to go for a physical, drug test, and agility test at a chiropractor today beofore I can start work on Monday. BUT you all know how good my luck is.. YESTERDAY, th day before my back test, I pulled my back. I had to go to the ER all day and now Im on tons of drugs and had to move the test forward which means my start date of monday the 23rd got moved to february 6th. IF i can even take the job now. Ill have to see wahts up with my back and go to a specialist before hten becuase this is the 3rd time in 4 months that its given out. WHO HAS GOT THE BEST LUCK??!! | | Sunday, November 6th, 2005 | | 1:45 pm |
Does anyone know of any jobs hiring in the Mass/Conn area? I am desperate for anything that pays decent. please help! | | Monday, October 31st, 2005 | | 7:37 pm |
the loves of my life.
So I thought Id share some pictures for some reason.. boredom I suppose. Yes, Lou and I really sleep like that. Yes my roommate secretly loves Chloe and dresses her up when we arent home. Yes my dogs are named Chloe and Zoey and no they do not love eachother. Yes Lou is... welllll Lou. <3 Yes Chloe really walks around with balloons like a little kid. So cute. She carries the string in her mouth.
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